I sit here this morning considering what the circumstances of life may be calling me to do today that I don’t feel capable of doing on my own.
Dave is gone for the next 10 days. This isn’t a problem for me, I know how to be alone. However, in light of this past month, the reality is, I may be faced with decisions I wish I could process with him or some things completely out of my comfort zone. I was heading into this time already worn and fervently praying about ‘one’ of those things.
Since the hurricane…we’ve had unwelcomed visitors, the creepy crawly kind entering our house frequently…not our team house…primarily our house. However, for the first time since living here ‘a rat’ came to join us. This is NOT ok. They are not small here. We do a good job staying clean, keeping all food in plastic tubs…we take all the necessary precautions. But…we do buy local fresh eggs which stay on a shelf since they don’t need to be refrigerated. He…she…it… found those, feasted and decided to stay. We set a trap. IT happily helped itself to the delicious peanut butter and went on its way. Not ok. Last night I saw it again. I prayed. Each time I woke in the night I prayed. It’s silly, I know. I begged the Lord that we would catch it before Dave left this morning.
God answered this prayer with a ‘yes’!! I am more grateful than you’ll ever know. I could show you a picture, but won’t. I couldn’t bear to look at it.
It’s the little things that break our spirit sometimes when we are in the midst of challenging days. God knew I needed Him to show Himself in this moment. He uses these times, even ones that are no big deal to another to strengthen our faith, to remind us of His presence.
Because of moments like these instead of saying ‘this is too hard’ or ‘this is not my gifting, not my calling, not why I came here’, when things don’t go as I thought or seem too much, I can choose to invite God to use the process to transform me…however long it takes.
He knows our breaking point. On occassion He does answer ‘yes’ to even what seems to be the silliest of prayers, but aren’t to us.
He promises to give the weary strength, power to the one who lacks it, wisdom to those who are clueless. I trust Him to give me what I need.
I want to accept the invitation to become a different kind of person instead of one who runs from what’s difficult, uncomfortable. I long to become more like Him.
“And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen.” 1 Peter 5:10-11