I have this crazy privilege of being in this intimate relationship with the Creator of all that is around me. It brings me joy. And yet, I wrestle with it. It’s frustrating. That brings me sorrow. My mind HAS been transformed through the power of the Spirit; however, a war continues to wage within me and there are moments where I fail to yield control of my thoughts to the Spirit of God. When my human mind takes my thoughts captive and I resist the truth of the Word. I feel wishy-washy and I really hate that.
Jesus tells us to pray differently…with a confidence, a boldness that my Daddy, my God sees me…knows me and knows what I need long before I ask (Matt 6:5-8). It’s ONLY with the help of the Holy Spirit I am able. Because I AM His child, I have this power that I know I don’t fully comprehend. Its Gods will for me to pray continually, giving thanks in ALL circumstances (1 Thes 5:16-18). It is HIS WILL, which I really do believe means He empowers me to do so even in the moments I have no idea what to say, what to pray. When I don’t understand circumstances…when I’m weary… when we’re attempting to make decisions based upon rumors and suspicions…when my human mind is fighting for control… I HAVE the Spirit who in my weakness, intercedes on my behalf in accordance with God’s will (Rom 8:25-28). I hope…I wait…patiently. El-Shaddai, God Almighty stands in the gap of war that happens within me.
Because He stands for me, I won’t lose heart. As scripture says, physically I may be perishing, but inwardly I am renewed…day by day (2 Cor 4:16). His many names throughout scripture remind me of Who He is in moments of weakness.