I have this crazy privilege of being in this intimate relationship with the Creator of all that is around me. It brings me joy.  And yet, I wrestle with it.  It’s frustrating.  That brings me sorrow.  My mind HAS been transformed through the power of the Spirit; however, a war continues to wage within me and there are moments where I fail to yield control of my thoughts to the Spirit of God.  When my human mind takes my thoughts captive and I resist the truth of the Word.  I feel wishy-washy and I really hate that.

Jesus tells us to pray differently…with a confidence, a boldness that my Daddy, my God sees me…knows me and knows what I need long before I ask (Matt 6:5-8).  It’s ONLY with the help of the Holy Spirit I am able.  Because I AM His child, I have this power that I know I don’t fully comprehend.  Its Gods will for me to pray continually, giving thanks in ALL circumstances (1 Thes 5:16-18).  It is HIS WILL, which I really do believe means He empowers me to do so even in the moments I have no idea what to say, what to pray.  When I don’t understand circumstances…when I’m weary… when we’re attempting to make decisions based upon rumors and suspicions…when my human mind is fighting for control… I HAVE the Spirit who in my weakness, intercedes on my behalf in accordance with God’s will (Rom 8:25-28).  I hope…I wait…patiently.  El-Shaddai, God Almighty stands in the gap of war that happens within me.  

Because He stands for me, I won’t lose heart. As scripture says, physically I may be perishing, but inwardly I am renewed…day by day (2 Cor 4:16).  His many names throughout scripture remind me of Who He is in moments of weakness.